Tuesday, January 3, 2023

Time to read more

I've always liked to go to a bookstore and searched randomly for books. I like the word serendipity and I like the idea of it. This time while I had some time in the shopping mall, I went to a bookstore and I bought this book - Last Stories, a compilation of short stories by William Trevor. I instantly bought it when I saw the discounted price, at almost 80% off the original price.

New book always creates a spark in me, a spark to read more. I got this feeling whenever I purchase a new book. And then I realize that last year I hadn't read much at all, which is sad. In some way, short stories is good to kick start again the reading habit as it requires lower commitment.

The thing is I don't know much the book, nor the author William Trevor. So far I just read the very first story - The Piano Teacher's Pupil. It is a melancholic one, which is just the way I like. I've got a feeling that it is going to be a good read. 



















Monday, January 2, 2023

2022 World Cup Final - The Greatest World Cup Final Ever

I can say that this is the greatest the world cup final ever and nobody would disagree. I am writing this weeks after the final simply because I still couldn't get out over it. From time to time, I still look over the Youtube to watch some live reaction video to the final. Every emotions, every ups and downs, it seems like every human on Earth was watching it together.

I still remember vividly that night. To be honest I wasn't planning to watch the final. I was baking some burnt cheesecakes. At around midnight while I was waiting for the cakes to cool down before I put them into the fridge, I was scrolling mindlessly through the Facebook. I was thinking, no way France could came back from down 0-2 with less than 10mins left. I was preparing to sleep. But then the miracle happened. First I saw the news 2-1, France finally scored with a penalty. That still didn't peek my interest yet. And then literally a minute later when I refreshed my news feed, it became 2-2! EQUALIZED! From there on, I was hooked. I jumped out of sofa and opened up the final livestream. 

From the 2-2 equalizer onwards, the match really heated up. Both sides constantly attacking, from one end of the field to another. It was already late at night, but I could still hear people shouting of excitement from the mamak stall nearby my house. It was nail-biting to say the least. I don't think I was sitting still for the rest of the match. For the penalty shootout at the end, the stakes were so high that I had to turn my back against the screen. I just couldn't stand the tension.

Although I was rooting for France, the match was so good that in the end it didn't matter to me that who won. Both teams gave us the match to talk about for centuries. I was just glad that I was able to witness the greatest sporting event ever.











Sunday, January 1, 2023

Climax Fucked Me Up

It's been days after I watched the 2018 film Climax by Gaspar Noé, I still can't get over it. The imagery has burnt in my memory, even yesterday night I had some really strange dreams (although I can no longer recall them) and a rough night sleep. I had heard many compliments as well as disgust towards Gaspar's filmography and Climax is my first Garpar Noé's film. Out of morbid curiosity I checked out Climax a few days ago. OH BOY! It is an experience, to say the least.


To be honest, as much as how horrifying the film depicts the effect LSD could be, deep down inside, the film somehow convinces a part of me, just a tiny part of me, to try out LSD, to check out the my inner demon, to find out what kind of person I truly am. The film shows how exactly LSD would peel off the outer shell of a person, tear down all the phoniess, all the pretentiousness, so that the truest desire reveals itself. But then curiosity can kill. This tiny thought that the film manages to give me is damn dangerous, I have to admit. 

It is hard to recommend this film. It is unique, it is vulgar, it is a horror film, and it assaults your senses. At the same time, I also feel a certain sadness for the characters among many are merely victims. The slow descent to hellscape, a trainwreck happens in slow-mo, is unbearable to watch but I am morbidly fascinated. It is like what people like to say, it is just hard to look away from a car accident.












Saturday, October 8, 2022

Mat Kilau is a disappointment

Luckily I didn't go to cinema to watch Mat Kilau. Or else I would have suffered severe migraine from all the excessive shaky cam shown on a big screen.


The movie was a huge hit when it came out in June. The box office success as well as all the racial controversies that it created, naturally I found myself pretty hyped to see it. Actually I don't really mind if the movie is ultra Malay-nationalistic or what-not. All I want is a kick-ass martial action flick. To this point, I would say that Mat Kilau is pretty disappointing. The fight choreography is good. The actors' postures and fighting moves are on-point. But why the hell they have to add so much shaky cam in. It is just frustrating to see that so much good stuff goes down the drain. I thought that shaky cam is so 10 years ago and everyone hates shaky cam is already a common knowledge. It is just sad to see such a wasted potential.

Another thing that Mat Kilau is missing in order to become the perfect action movie is the lacking of different "flavours" in its action scenes. There is no shortage of actions in Mat Kilau. But after an hour in, I found myself a bit bored. The main reason is that all the action scenes just feel too similar. When the action scenes become abundant, it is necessary to add "flavours" to them, to keep the visual stimulating and the audience engaged. What do I mean by "flavours" is a combination of many things, such as the setting, whether it is an open field or a claustrophobic tunnel; the types of weapons used that would change the fighting style, whether it is hand-to-hand fight or a fight with a long-ranged bamboo; the time of day the fight happens, etc.. Take one of the golden benchmark of action films - Mad Max Fury Road. Although the entire movie is basically a long action-packed chase set in the desert, we the audience could clearly identify that there is the starting chase started from the Citadel and ends with the sandstorm, the canyon chase with the flying motorcycles, the night chase through the muddy field, etc.. With Mat Kilau, I remember there is the fight at the jetty, the fight at night to save Wahid, and the big fight at the end. There are variations but they are slight variations. All of them just feel that they could blend together. When you watch it you would know exactly what I mean.

Overall, I think Mat Kilau is just a "meh".























Sunday, October 24, 2021

Poor Economics gives me a lot of hope

"Poor Economics" is written by Abhijit Banerjee and Esther Duflo, the couple who won the Nobel Prize 2019 in Economics alongside with Michael Kremer. All three of them, they won the Nobel Prize for their on-going effort and studies in alleviating global poverty. This book can be treated as a summary of their decades-long work. My verdict of the book? Short answer is, it's really good. 

I won't go into details of the book here. Actually there is a Youtube video which in my opinion gives a excellent overview of the book - How to break away from poverty? [2019 Nobel Economics Prize explained]. It is in Mandarin, but it has good English subtitle. Furthermore, there is a full playlist of the courses given by the authors themselves in MIT which entirely based on the book itself. In this blog entry, I just gonna go through my thoughts about the book.  

The thing that I like the most about the book is that, it doesn't apply clichés to the poor. The one thing to take away from the book is that no assumption should be taken for granted. Every assumption needs to be carefully tested and they did just that - performing randomized controlled trial (RCT) and conducting social experiments around hypothesis. I still can't believe that they were the first people who used RCT to test different social policies. It sounds so intuitive and so surprising that nobody before them had actually applied the method in practice. These experiments are no easy tasks either as it normally involves active tracking over decades or may be over a generation. Their willingness to do the grunt work at ground zero, to interview the people, to cooperate with the local organizations, and understand the problems with a bottom-up approach is very admirable.

Throughout the book, it discusses many factors that could lead to poverty. To think the poor are poor because it's always their own fault, whether be they are lazy, they are short-sighted and lack planning for the future, they always seek for instant gratifications, etc., is a fatal flaw. It teaches the readers that, to view the poor from our comfortable couch, we have to ask ourselves, what privileges do we have. Bottom-line, the way we think aren't so different than the poor. When we ever make bad decisions, we have safety net to fall back upon. But if the poor makes bad decisions, the ripple effect gets amplified.

To quote a paragraph from the book:

Our real advantage comes from the many things that we take as given. We live in houses where clean water gets piped in - we do not need to remember to add Chlorine to the water supply every morning. The sewage goes away on its own - we do not actually know how. We can (mostly) trust our doctors to do the best they can and can trust the public health system to figure out what we should and should not do. We have no choice but to get out children immunized - public schools will not take them if they aren't - and even if we somehow manage to fail to do it, our children will probably be safe because everyone else is immunized. Our health insurers reward us for joining the gym, because they are concerned that we will not do it otherwise. And perhaps most important, most of us do not have to worry where our next meal will come from. In other words, we rarely need to draw upon our limited endowment of self-control and decisiveness, while the poor are constantly being required to do so.  

This is a book that every policy maker must read. I would also argue that this is a book that everyone should read too as a personal finance book. The main reason why every policy maker should read it is obvious, as it talks about regional experiments on different policies, touches on immunization programs, different solutions for clean water supply provision, education etc., that were conducted in various places such as South Asia and sub-Saharan countries. On the other hand as a personal finance book, it lays out how the poor think and react, the decisions they taken, etc. which I see these as an opportunity for introspecting and questioning our own tendencies and biases.

Although some key points in famous personal finance books like "Rich Dad Poor Dad" are useful, it also leans too much onto reasoning that being poor must be your own fault and the only way to become rich is to change your own mindset. And the other thing that I don't like about this kind of books  that is that they always want to sell you something, an ulterior motive, whether it is another book, a webinar, or a masterclass. Unlike them, "Poor Economics" instead empathizes the importance of policies and invisible nudges that could be implemented in people's daily lives to get them out of poverty.

While reading the book, it actually makes me think a lot about the situation in Malaysia, like for example the policy of letting citizens to withdraw from EPF to ease the people financially through the COVID-19 pandemic. News about EPF draining and almost half of EPF contributors have less than RM10,000 in their account worries me. I can never know the predicament some people might be having and how desperate they need the money. So withdrawing from the EPF might just be the best and only solution to navigate through the hardship. However I do hear from certain people around me that some withdrawals are not purely driven by desperation. Some seems to see it as an opportunity to have more cash in hand to spend, while some just worries that government officials might misuse the money in the EPF for their own interest. This just highlights the problem of poor education about retirement saving, or more specifically what is EPF and how does EPF works. It also shows very clearly the degradation of public trust in our government.

One last thing worth mentioning about the book is the authors' attitude towards their work. Despite of their decades long work in fighting poverty, in the end of the book, they still stay humble and state that there is so much still to be learned. The book serves also like an invitation to everyone, to join the effort and build upon the data collected and their researches. In human civilization, as much as we need the people who are shooting for the stars like migrating to Mars, we also need people who relentlessly performing the work at ground level. Their book gives me a lot of hope for humanity.